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Blackbird | Nashville Photographer

[i needed to give a preface to this blog post.  this feels very vulnerable and scary for me to share but i am finding that writing lately is therapy for me.  so i am putting myself out there in this weird online world to be judged or to be loved.  if you don't enjoy vulnerability and realness then maybe just stop reading now.  otherwise, read on and hopefully you will find some sort of companionship in your own story as well.]

The last 10 years Halloween has mainly been about making sure the kids had the right costumes and then raiding their candy after they go to bed.  I will usually put on some cat ears and call it a night.  But this year some friends and I decided to dress up and go to an actual adult party.  After changing my mind about 4 times, I finally settled on being a blackbird.  My kind friends at Fruition Salon wanted to help me with my hair and makeup so we spent the afternoon gluing on feather lashes and creating my bird-like hair.   Because, truth is, if I was left to my own devices then I would have looked like a bird nest instead of a bird.  So I was very grateful for their help.  

I want to say that I chose to be a blackbird for some deep, meaningful reason but honestly it was because I absolutely HATE birds.  I mean I like to watch them but if they get near me, I FREAK out.  So I couldn't think of anything more frightening to be than a black bird.  And Halloween is all about being scary, right?  So I head out feeling great looking forward to a night out with some of my closest friends.

I felt so happy that night, sitting around the fire with some truly kind, generous, thoughtful people.  All was right in my world.  And then it hit like a ton of bricks while sitting in a room with a handful of dear friends that are loving me so well these days.  My happiness turned to weeping.  I have been finding lately that when I find myself truly happy then a deep sense of sadness also rushes through me as well.  So I sat there and wept.  And I was loved.  And held.  Then one grabbed a guitar and started strumming "blackbird."  I didn't really understand the significance at the time because I was just in the midst of releasing so much feeling.  And the releasing was not just sadness and pain but also my happiness.  It was a cleansing, holy moment as the party thundered on downstairs.   And both of those were with me- the thundering happiness and the gentle sadness.  

The next morning I woke up with "blackbird" singing to me in the back of my mind.  And then it hit me.  My costume did mean something so much more than I realized.  And the words of that song could not say it any better...

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night

Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

And maybe next time when I see a black bird flying towards me, I won't be so afraid.  For it brought about my release and showed me the strength in my own brokenness.  

Happy Halloween to all of you friends.  

 

Fall | Nashville Photographer

I've been thinking a lot about seasons lately.  Honestly, I have always hated it when someone told that it was "just a season."  Especially when it came to my babies not sleeping.  It just seemed to diminish my painful sick exhaustion to mere seasonal allergies.  But the word "seasons" has been coming to me in a new way lately.  Fall has always been such a beautiful, yet also strangely aching time for me.  There is so much beauty in the smell and feel of the air yet there is so much loss experienced as the colorful leaves slowly fall to the ground leaving bareness all around.  

And my life seems to be in the midst of Fall itself.  Letting go of what I have held on to for so long through the Spring and Summer of my life.  Yet in the midst of the letting go, I am also learning to hope.  Knowing that Winter is coming and that the bareness will soon turn to beauty once again.  And isn't there some sort of odd beauty in the bareness as well?  You can see a bit more, right?  I am always amazed at being able to see things that I didn't see when the leaves hung on the trees: a neighbors house, the trail wrapping around the river, the sunset, the moon appearing a bit earlier through the bare branches.  And in this falling away of what I have known and held on to for so long, I am slowly learning to see a bit more.  More of myself.  More of my family.  More of God.  And the seeing isn't always pleasant or easy but it only gives way to growth.  And growth always leads to beauty.  Always.  

So, here I am on this path towards Winter and longing for Spring.  Yet I will stay in the falling away with my hands open knowing that this is where I am suppose to be and that soon my hands will be filled once again.  But I must keep them open and ready to hold whatever comes.  For it is in the openness that I can blossom.  

May wherever you are give you peace today.... 

The photo below is from one of my favorite places on earth, Onsite in Cumberland Furnace, TN.  If you are at a place that you feel like you need to hit a reset button on life, I would strongly suggest you looking into going here for a week.  It changed me and continues to change me today.  I am also happy to talk with anyone about my experience there as well.  Feel free to reach out.  

Dreaming of Narnia | Nashville Child Photographer

Before I was a photographer and before I had children, I worked in the book industry.  Working one year at Ingram Book Group gave me the chance to see movies before they would come out in theaters.  I was able to a "rough cut" of the Lion, Witch and the Wardrobe.  As soon as I saw the little girl who was cast as "Lucy" I could not help but think that if I ever had a little girl that she would look a lot like her.  There was something about her that felt like a glimpse into my future.  And was I ever right?!  Bella just got her hair cut (not intentionally) like Lucy's in the movie and I knew I had to photograph her in the long fur coat in the snow yesterday.  It literally gave me chills as I looked out at my daughter almost 11 years later standing before me looking exactly like that little girl I saw on the screen.  

And side note, who can believe the snow Nashville is getting this year?!  I am not a huge winter/snow fan so I am a bit ready for Spring.  But trying to be grateful for these moments with my little ones because I know someday I will wish I was stuck in a house with them when they are grown and moved away.  It's all about perspective, right?  Oh and also a good bottle of wine.  


2016 | Nashville Photographer

Hello 2016!  

One way I welcomed the new year was going to see the film, Joy.  In short it is about a girl who is forced to lose her passion for creating at a young age in the midst of life's cruel realities.  Her childhood self begins to remind her of what she lost and she decides to stop hiding and create once again.  This got me thinking about the new year and what I have been holding back.  Photography was not a first love.  It grew slowly with a film camera in my hand as I photographed my first born in her first year of life.  My first love began at a very early age.  It came naturally, without force.  I was the little girl who begged her mom for those $100 pair of Guess jeans in elementary school.   Going into college I longed to work in the world of fashion.  Something along the way scared me off.  Voices whispered in my ear that I was just a girl from Arkansas who could never make it in the big world of fashion.  So I settled for the safe and easy road of Speech Communications.  I mean, what in the world was I to do with that major?  Well it's pretty safe to say that somehow that useless degree and a Masters later, I have found my calling.  And I am beyond grateful for this job as a photographer!  But something deep within me is calling out to be heard and seen.  

So this is how I have decided to enter into 2016: doing something that scares the shit out of me.  I noticed a fashion challenge online this morning as I was scrolling through social media.  It is one that I have seen over the years but always dismiss it as too much work and a bit frightening.  But this morning the little girl in me whispered to GO FOR IT.  So here I am about to embark on a 30 day fashion challenge that I plan to share with all of you.  Some of the challenges are quite easy and a few are a bit beyond my idea of comfort (fraying a jean jacket?!!).  But the scariest part for me is to actually share it with YOU.  To show photos of myself every single day.  Ugh.  But I am jumping in even if I only get one like (from my mom).  

And now I ask you what it is that you are hiding from the world?  I do believe that we all lost something as children that were an inherent part to who we were and are today.  I encourage you to at least find out what it is and maybe someday have the courage enough to put it out there.  Because trust me, it takes courage.  As I am writing this my heart is beating out of my chest because I know that I could look foolish and fail.  But I owe it to that little girl who walked that runway in Dillards in those tie-dyed Guess jeans truly believing the world was her oyster.  

So here's to 2016 and following your dreams!  And if you want to join my challenge then here is the information:  http://www.whowhatwear.com/30-day-winter-wardrobe-challenge-2016

And follow my journey on instagram:  instagram.com/tronephotography

Cheers to all of you,

Misty

 

What a Month | Nashville Photographer

Well this month has proven to be quite exciting, especially since this month is my busiest time all year long.  A few weeks ago I was at a session at Percy Warner Park with a sweet, sweet family.  I had another session directly after and went back to my car only to find my window busted and my purse gone.  I did not want to leave my other family waiting so I went straight to my next session with hands shaking and mind racing.  But the best part was the fact that my friends who I photographed first stayed by my car to call and wait for the police.  They showed kindness to me beyond belief.  I basically had to force them to leave after a few hours.  And it could have been much worse with my camera or laptop stolen.  So I was definitely counting my blessings even in the midst of loss.  

Then a week or so after that I was in a creek chasing my middle boy and slipped on a rock catching myself with my middle finger.  Well that middle finger decided to completely shift to the side dislocating itself from the joint.  Needless to say it hurt like hell and I thought my finger was dangling.  The first thing that came to my mind was "how am I going to be a photographer now without a finger?!"  Thankfully it was not broken and the doctor just popped it back in place.  There is still a ton of healing to take place but once again, it could be worse.  

Now we enter the season of being grateful for the things we do have even if there is some sort of loss or pain in our lives as well.  I am trying to count my blessings and really pay attention to the little graces that I receive every single day.  So to all of those who are entering this Christmas season with dread at the things, people or places you have lost- hold on to the small graces.  They are there shining through the cracks.  

Below are a few of my favorite photos from my many sessions of this season.  Small graces extended to me.  


Happy Birthday to my Girl | Nashville Child Photographer

My first baby turned 9 yesterday.  It seemed like yesterday that I was seeing her tiny face for the first time and my world turned upside down.  She came into this world with her wide, beautiful green eyes looking straight into the soul of every single person in that hospital room.  She was so quiet yet so intense and aware.  Nothing has changed in those 9 years.  She has the ability to look into the souls of those around her and see things many do not see.   If you know her, then you know the love that she shows those around her.  The intense, purposeful Bella Grace love.  I am so proud to be her Momma and she truly is changing me more than I am changing her.  

I was able to get a few shots of her on her 9th birthday.  I can't believe she will be double digits next year.  I feel her childhood slipping away and I want to hold on with dear life.  But if this growing up is anything like I have seen this year, I am happy to be along on this beautiful yet intense ride.  Hold on, beautiful girl, you are going to soar.  And I will hold on as long as I can... But someday I'm going to have to let you go.  But, thank God, not today.

 


What I think about #selfies | Nashville Photographer

A question was asked on facebook the other day by one of my very best friends: "what do you all think about selfies?"  She is one of the most gorgeous people I know, inside & out.  Her "selfies" always radiate such confidence & joy flowing right out of the photograph.  Since she lives far away from me, I am always happy to see her beautiful face on my screen.  But it got me thinking.  What do I think about selfies?  And I had a pretty strong opinion that I shared on her facebook post that I will elaborate on below. 

I have been seeing so many remarks on social media about selfies and the people that hate them.  They tend to view those who post selfies to be narcisstic, selfish human beings.  But I actually think of it a little different.  My question to those haters: why are you not able to look at another human being, created by God, and celebrate their beauty?  And I can hear the haters now, well so+so posts a photo everyday in a bikini or at the gym with their abs glowing in the light.  Ok, those are not the selfies I am talking about.  I am talking about the regular, "I am feeling beautiful today, there is some good light so I am going to take a photo of myself" selfie.  Friends!!  I have got a mission for you!  CELEBRATE THE BEAUTY OF THOSE AROUND YOU!!!!   But not only that: CELEBRATE THE BEAUTY OF YOU!!!!!  I am guessing that if you are a hater of selfies (or a recovering hater of selfies) then you might have a little trouble not only celebrating the beauty of a friend but also of yourself.  You are beautiful.  Right where you are.  Not when you lose another 10 pounds or finally get those grays covered.  You.Are.Beautiful.  

I was so inspired by my friend, Amber Lehman, as she told me why she wanted the below photograph.  She had been inspired by another mutual friend, Ruthie, and the incredibly, gorgeous photographs of her mother when she was younger.  Amber wanted her children and grandchildren to see the beauty of her youth.  Now that is CELEBRATION friends!  

Another inspiration behind this idea was the photograph below that I found of my husbands grandmother and her twin sister when they were in their 20's.  It captured them in their beauty of youth (though she is still incredibly beautiful and still has blonde hair at 90!) .  It made me think, why we, as women, don't take the time to really capture beautiful images of our self?  To give ourselves permission to live in the very essence of our beauty.  Our children and grandchildren will cherish these images for generations.  Nothing seems too selfish or narcissistic about that.   


This is the year that I want myself, along with all of you to let down our fear and truly honor the beauty in ourselves along with the beauty we see in others.  So, take those selfies!  Like those selfies!  And hire me to take beautiful photographs of you, wherever you are in life. 

#truthtuesday | nashville children photographer

My friend and I were talking one afternoon about how hard it is to look at photos on Instagram and Facebook everyday and not feel a little envious of everyone else's life.  Then we realized that if we just took a look at our own photos, people would feel the same way about our life.  But we knew that was far from the real truth.  Naturally we want to capture the best moments of life and put them up for the world to see.  But if that is all we see then we will begin to get a distorted view of the world around us.  I love the quote "be kind for everyone is fighting a hard battle."  The truth behind the beautiful photographs we see of others lives (and our own) on the screens of our phones is that there is another story weaving through the beauty.  And that story is one of pain, disappointment and imperfection.  We all have it and can feel so alone in that part of our story.  So this is where our idea for #truthtuesday originated.  Let's share the imperfect, less shiny parts of our lives on Tuesdays so we can slowly learn that we are in this life together- the good, bad and all that lies between.  Be brave next Tuesday.  It really does feel good.  

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Being Real | Nashville Family Photographer

Lately there has been a lot of talk about "being real" on social media.  We are constantly bombarded by images that make us believe that our world is not as glamorous as the friend next door.  As a photographer, I can see both sides of the issue.  It is natural and good for us to want to share beautiful images where we are enjoying life at its best.  This is what photographs are for - no matter if they are taken with your iPhone or with your film camera.  Photographs celebrate the beauty of life.  So part of me wants to say, "get off your jealous high horse and celebrate these moments with others."  But then there is the other part of me that looks at my friends photos and believes the lie that "my life is not half as good as their life."  This part of me wants to start a revolution of being real not only in photographs but also in all aspects of life.  It has me thinking that, as a photographer, I could start here.  Yes, you will still see the beauty of life in the majority of my photos but I am hoping to also begin to show you some of the "out-takes" that I never even show my clients.  The moments where the kid is throwing a fit or a parent is making that exhausted face.  We all have those moments so let's try to not feel so alone in them.  And maybe even begin to find some sort of beauty in the hard of life along with the good. So now begins my series of Real Life photographs... To keep it real, I will start with my own.

the beauty.....

the reality...

(along with me screaming, "get up NOW! you are all wet & we came all the way here for pictures!!)

endings | nashville photographer

So, I sit here in my home of almost 8 years for the last evening.  Memories invade every corner of this house.  From the front door where we walked in with Bella Grace for the first time to the backyard where neighbors became friends.  Each room has a life of its own.  And they have only evolved and changed as time has moved on.   Bedrooms have changed from guest rooms or offices now filled with little bodies wanting to be tucked in every night.  The kids went to the grandparents house Saturday but I swore I heard laughter down the hall today echoing from the very walls.  I know it remains.  These walls have held us together when everything seemed to be falling apart.  The wooden hallways kept our feet firm on the days when I felt I could no longer stand.  The beautiful front yard gave us a place of refuge when the tiny ranch house seemed to close in on us.  The backyard brought us friendship, with the lifting of little ones over the fence beckoning one another to play.  The dining room filled with so many amazing conversations over a long dinner and a good bottle of wine.  Oh yet how I quickly forget the hard.  The tantrums in that hallway.  The nights when the baby would not fall asleep and we would pace the little nursery complete with exhaustion.  The fights resulting in a closed bedroom door hoping to show him the hurt.  The saying goodbye to our first dog out the front window as he drove away with his new owner.  The hard comes with the good in this house.  And tomorrow we leave it all behind.  We say goodbye to the only place our children have known as home.  The place where love has grown, through the good and the bad.  And now we look forward with great expectation on what the walls will echo back to us in our new home.  My prayer is that it will be even better than we could imagine. So goodbye to you, our first home.  Though we leave you, we will never forget the joy found within these walls.  You have been so good to us.

Mama said there'd be Days like this | Nashville Family Photographer

Every time I have one of these days I sing in my head (and sometimes out loud): "mama said there would be days like this..."   This morning my 6 year old would not get dressed and decided that she would fight me tooth and nail to get on her clothes.  As a result we did not have time to put her hair in ponytails.  You would have thought no ponytails in her hair equaled to being stung by a thousand bumble bees.  We exchanged words in the car (to put it nicely).  A pull-over one street over followed with my long, skinny pointer finger coming out waving as hard as it could muster.  10 punishments later, we pulled into the school where tears were still flowing from the fact that her hair was un-ponytailed.  Walking through the halls, I felt so much shame in allowing my daughter to cry and show her sadness (aka anger).  Not trying to fix it was very hard for this Mom who likes to portray that she is pretty awesome.  I got back in the car and breathed in the stale milk air deeply and then did all I knew how to do: cry for help.  My prayer went something like this: God, give me mercy.  I don't know how to do this. Am I screwing my children up?  Am I really a terrible mother?  How do I discipline over & over yet still show them love & grace?  I give up.

Then I realized that this was where God wanted me to be... helpless, yet knowing that He can help.  And I have to admit, I was sort of mad at Him about it.  I didn't want to be helpless.  I wanted to be strong.  To know the right answers.  To be the perfect Mother.  To have it all together.  But guess what- I don't.  Not even close to it.  So, I will say that prayer over & over for the rest of my life... God, give me mercy.  God, give me mercy.

Can you imagine this beauty giving me such grief????

Being a Mom always comes first | Nashville Children's Photographer

Sometimes your week just doesn't go as expected.  Especially if you are a Mom to young children.  A feverish child wakes you up in the middle of the night and you lose those precious hours of sleep.  The next day you are needing to work but you are holding them tightly on the couch.  But I must say that I am so so thankful that being a Mom comes first.  I absolutely love, love what I do as a photographer but I love my children even more.  And I am grateful that I can put down my work for a few days to care for them.  Now I am not saying it's all glamorous and that I don't complain.  Because, believe me, I do.  And I confess that as I write these sweet, loving words my 2 year old is taking a much needed nap and my oldest is at school.  So it's easy to say it now.  In another few hours, I may have to coax these thoughts out of me as I try to cook dinner with a fussy boy on my hip and a little girl needing my undivided attention on her art project.  But for now, it's quiet and I am thankful. And within the 10 minutes it took me to upload the photos, my boy woke up.  After only a 30 minute nap.  So back to work I go, hoping that the whispers of thankfulness will ring true in my ear.

Here are a few cute photos I took of my growing girl..

Christians and Yoga | Nashville Photographer

Rushing. Constant noise in my ear.  My breath can’t keep up with the next breath.  Thoughts run together until I can’t remember why I walked downstairs in the first place.  TV. Radio. Noise Machines. Iphones. Internet.   All keeping me at the pace of a racehorse trying to win the Kentucky Derby.  But this body is tired of racing all the time.  When my body finally caught up with the endless amount of chasing kids, running errands, and taking photographs, I was beat – not just physically but also spiritually. Yet I live in the 21st century where racing is essential to survival.

Thankfully, there is an hour that exists outside of this insanity.  My 8:30am Yoga class is a place where I find refuge and rest.   For one hour the racing stops.  When I am in shavasana, the intrusive noises of my day are quieted and I can actually hear the voice of God.  He tells me that I’m strong because He is my strength.  He tells me that I can have peace because He has overcome the world.  He tells me that my body is beautiful because His hands formed me in my mother’s womb.  He tells me it’s good to be still because that’s when I truly know He is God.  And He tells me that my breath is sacred because it comes from Him alone.

The word Yoga means “to join, unite or to attach.” If God is truly Wholly Other, then I can’t imagine a better place for God to reside than in a room full of people uniting their bodies together in quiet harmony. There is no other communal bodily experience (outside of worship itself) that I have found to be more beautiful.  Our bodies were made for more than just beating against the wind.  Lying on my mat, I can hear the kickboxing class below – the thudding of feet just trying to keep up with the music that drowns out their own fear of not succeeding.  It begins to sounds like my every day life. Yet when I am quiet I am reminded that God made us for stillness, meditation and to be in tune with our bodies.

In Romans, we are told that God commands us to “offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, for this is your spiritual act of worship.”  Is beating our bodies ragged in this fast-paced society a living sacrifice?  I think of a sacrifice as someone that is fully aware of how alive they are in their body: counting every breath, feeling every rise and fall of the chest, knowing that the body is the armor of life. Dead sacrifices are no longer aware of what they feel or think.  And Most of the time I feel like a dead sacrifice running around trying to catch my next breath.  Yet I long to be a living sacrifice - fully aware that both my breath and my soul are sacred.  Understanding that life – my very soul – is a gift.

In his article, “Christian Yoga: It's a Stretch,” Mark Driscoll describes the practice of Yoga as “demonic.” He uses the same passage above from Romans to explain, “everything we do with our physical bodies also involves our immortal souls.”  While I completely agree with his statement, I disagree that yoga cannot be a means for binding the two. Body and soul are inextricably linked, and breath can become prayer – the physical and spiritual working together in perfect harmony  Susanna Herring, owner of Hot Yoga of Nashville, so wonderfully explains this harmony of body and spirit, “We bow to the divine in each one of us. As a Christian, I consider bowing to the divine by acknowledging the Holy Spirit inside of us and acknowledging we humans are made in the image of God.” This acknowledgement Susanna is describing – saying “Namaste” at the end of the practice – frightens many Christians. Yet “Namaste” means to give notice to another person, to recognize their presence.  It means seeing the divine that resides in each person who is made in the very image of God Himself. When do we take time to actually recognize someone else’s presence and to give such a beautiful form of acknowledgement? By saying this, we are not worshipping a human form of a false god.  We are admiring the beauty of the greatest of God’s creations: the human body & Spirit.  And ultimately we are worshipping God Himself when we place our hands together, our fingers pointed to something beyond ourselves, and say Namaste – I see you.

In my experience, there are three components to yoga: exercise, breathing and meditation. All three are essential in understanding how yoga and Christianity are not at war with each other.  While most Christians believe that exercise is a God-honoring activity, having a fit body is not going to get you into heaven.  In fact, I dare to say that sometimes it may keep you from having true communion with Jesus.  Our body worshipping culture tries to convince us that if only ______ were flatter, more toned, straighter, etc. – then we could be loved.  But Jesus tells us something different ; He says that He loves us just as we are.  And what I love about yoga is that it reiterates exactly what Jesus teaches: be who you are, where you are.  My teacher, Marlaine, always reminds us to listen to our bodies and to not compare ourselves with anyone in the class.  The practice is for you alone.  As regular exercise, yoga is so freeing to me because, unlike every other exercise class I have attended, I feel no pressure to compete or compare myself with those around me.

Breathing comes second nature to the exercise in the practice of yoga.  My yoga friend, Elisabeth, reminded me yesterday that the Hebrew name for God, “Yahweh,” literally sounds like an inhale/exhale when spoken in Hebrew.  God’s name is breath.  And He breathed our very existence into place.  We inhale our very first breath into this world and exhale our very last as we enter eternity.  Breath is essential to our life with God, and yet it is something we take into consideration very little.  We, as Christians, think it to be too mystical or self-centering to focus on the body’s response to life.  Yet it is our very breath that God intended to remind us of Him every time we say His name.  And as I breathe in and out on my mat, His very name is spoken all around, whether the lips know it or not.

This can only bring me to meditation. Though its history is steeped in Christianity, the term often frightens away many Christians for sounding too “New Age.”  People wonder if it’s possible to meditate on Jesus during yoga practice while someone lying on the mat next to them is meditating on something (or someone) else?   This brings me to another question: how do we define meditation?  Webster defines it as “engaging in mental exercise for the purpose of reaching a heightened spiritual awareness.”  It is something that is internal, personal, and between you and God alone.  No one else can enter into that space.  If I can’t be brought into a place with God in a room full of people from all different backgrounds, then how will I ever learn to find Him in the world around me?  In his book, Blue Like Jazz, Don Miller says something that is really beautiful to me.  He was on a college campus in Portland that was very well known for its liberalism and hatred for Christians.  One night after leaving a wild, worldly event on campus, Don looked back “at the kids laughing, dancing, and throwing up.” And he “felt very strongly that Jesus was relevant in this place, that if He was not relevant here then He was not relevant anywhere.”  That’s exactly how I feel about my place in yoga.  If Jesus cannot be found in that room, then He cannot be found anywhere.

I am not discounting the fact that the origins of yoga come from the Hindu tradition.  But the Hindu's took the above gifts from the true God and turned them into a way to worship a false god.  I could argue this point in many ways in the fact there are many things we love in America that has it origins in other religious traditions.  One example of this is the Olympic games - originating in the worship of Greek gods.  When someone participates in the Olympic games, we do not accuse them of dancing with the devil or worshipping another god.  We understand that the meaning of the games have changed and evolved over the centuries.  Can someone still participate in the games for the intention of worshipping a Greek god?  Of course.  But a Christian can also run with the purpose of living out his life verse of Philippians 4:13: "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

This is what it comes down to:  If I really believe that God is Yahweh, who commands that every breath out of our mouths gives glory to His name, then I must be able to find Him everywhere.  And an unlikely place that I have found Him is in a little room at the YMCA, a place I never expected to find Him.  Ever.  I did not go there seeking to find Him.  But He was there waiting for me.  Waiting to make my breath part of His.  Waiting to give me quiet in the midst of chaos.  Waiting to embrace me for who I am today, not for who I will be tomorrow.  Waiting to sing over me with His presence.  Yes, it’s an unlikely place to find God.  But the more I come to know Him, the more I realize that’s how He works – meeting unlikely people in unlikely places.  So to all you who believe yoga is not for Christians, I say please find a place to be with God in the quiet, in the stillness.  Find a place to listen to God’s name come out in your breath.  Find a place to hear Him find delight in you.  It doesn’t have to be yoga.  It doesn’t even have to be in church.  But please don’t jump to judgment for your fellow brothers and sisters who do find God in a dimly lit room as they move their bodies to the flow of the very name of God.  Namaste.

*these are pictures of one of my good friends and her sister who are both instructors at Hot Yoga Nashville

Favorites of 2011 | Nashville Photographer

So it's about time for the Favorites of the Year contest again!  I feel like I just did this yesterday and it was a year ago.  Wow!  This year it is going to be a bit different- it will take place on my Trone Photography Facebook page.  So make sure you have "liked" the page in order to receive updates on the contest!  Here is the link: http://www.facebook.com/tronephotography I really love New Years Day and thinking back on some of my favorite things about 2011.  So I thought I might make a few list of some of my favorites of the year.  Hope something on my lists make your 2012 a little brighter!

Favorite Books Read:

Philippa Gregory - The Other Boleyn Girl, The Boleyn Inheritance, The White Queen, The Constant Princess - I have read all 4 of these just since Thanksgiving.  They can be a little addicting so beware!

Ken Follett - The Fall of Giants - The first in a trilogy of books following a group of characters throughout the 20th century.  This one delves into the history of WWI and the Russian Revolution.  Fascinating.

Eric Metaxas - Bonhoeffer: Pastor, Martyr, Prophet - This is probably one of the most impactful books I have ever read.  Bonhoeffer was a man like no other and to read about his life was inspiring beyond belief.

Suzanne Collins - The Hunger Games - When my sister-in-law recommended these books to me, I just knew I would hate them.  But she was right & I was wrong.  A teen fiction trilogy that will leave you dying to see the movie.

Favorite Movies:

This category is lacking for a number of reasons.  1) I usually have to pay someone in order to go watch a movie.  2) I do not enjoy watching movies at home.  3) It was just a bad year for movies, in my humble opinion.  But here goes what I have...

Midnight in Paris - For me to list this as one of my favorites, I know it has to be a bad year for the movies.  I love Woody Allen movies but this one did not rank as high as I would have hoped.  A little too cheesy at times for me but still a well directed movie with an interesting plot.  And it doesn't hurt that it was in Paris either.

Food Inc - I just got around to watching this documentary this year and it really fascinated me.  I have always been interested in the production of food and the health repercussions because of it.  This only reinforced my belief in buying local, organic food as much as possible.

Babies - Another documentary on 4 different babies from different countries.  Story telling at its finest.

This is about all the favorites I can handle now.  Stay tuned to a few new sessions that I will post!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

Waiting | Nashville family photographer

I've been thinking a lot about waiting lately.  That's what this season is all about - the anticipation of what is to come.  We countdown the days until December 25th.  As children we long for Christmas morning so we can run down the stairs to see what presents are under the tree.  As adults we long for Christmas so we can be with those we love.  But do we really allow our hearts to long for more?  Are we brave enough to put our hearts on the line and yearn for what we cannot see with our eyes and touch with our hands?  I'm not sure I am.  It's so much easier to long for those things that are tangible - something with skin that I can touch and know is true.  Yet they always disappoint.  They never live up to the anticipation that causes my heart to beat a little harder with every day passing.  There is a loss once it passes.  We all know that feeling once the presents are opened and the food is put away.  The anticipation is gone and a sort of sadness takes its place.   Maybe I'm not brave enough to hope for more.  But I'm really hoping that I can open my heart just enough to let a little light in this Christmas.  And maybe in 10 years the light will be enough to fill up the darkness. Here is a beautiful friend of mine that has taught me a lot about waiting in the midst of hopelessness.  And has shared her story with us all to give us all hope of a story redeemed.

Advent | Nashville Family Photographer

Those of you who have read my blog for the last few years know that I have a thing for writing during Christmas & Easter.  Just something about this time of year makes me reflective and I have to get it out.  So if you only are here to look at pictures then you might as well scroll on down. Today is the first day of Advent.  A day where we begin the anticipation of the coming of the Lord.  This morning in church we were encouraged to "engage" ourselves during this season of Advent.  I though a lot about that word - engage.  One of the definitions that I found was "to participate."  So then I ask myself - "what does it look like to participate in this season of Advent?"  I can think of all the Sunday school answers quickly: pray more, have my quiet time, make Jesus the reason for the season, serve dinner to the homeless, etc etc.  Don't get me wrong- I'm not saying that any of these are bad.  They are all very good and holy things.  But I'm just thinking that maybe there is more than doing all the right things.  What if engaging with Christ this Holy season means that I just learn to be.  Wait for Him.  Long for Him.  Listen for Him.  Look for Him.

And maybe then I could find myself participating in the greatest story the world has ever known.

{Disclaimer: I could not find a way to tie in these beautiful photos to my above post.  But I am adding them anyway... Enjoy this amazing gorgeous family!}

Beauty in the Mess | Nashville Family Photographer

As soon as I looked at my camera, I knew this photo was completely out of focus.  But at the same time I knew that I loved it.  Did I mess up?  Heck yeah.  Is there still beauty in the mess?  A double heck yeah.  Beauty can still shine through the broken places.  And sometimes it is in those places where we can let go of the knowing and cling to the mystery.  I look at this photo and see a glimpse of the original intention.  But as I back away, I see something mysterious.  Wonderous.  Beautifully complex.  And I am reminded of this... "For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face.  Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known."  1 Corinthians 13:12

Photographing Your Own Children | Nashville Children's Photographer

I know many of you have your own digital SLR's (aka big cameras) and really enjoy taking photos of your own children.  So, I thought I would take time out today to give you a few of my favorite tips in photographing children. 1. Talk to them- do not talk at them.  Try not to say - "stand here, don't move, etc"  You know (better than anyone else) what your children love to talk about so this is your chance to use this for your benefit!   Engage with them.  This makes for an atmosphere for more natural, fun looking photographs.

2. Give them something to do.  Walk.  Jump.  Count to 10.  Sing.  Twirl.  Freeze.  Make it fun!

3.  Get on their level.  I see this as one of the most common mistakes parents make when photographing their children.  You must literally move your camera (and therefore your body) to their eye level.  Sometimes this means you find me lying fully on the ground.  There are some cases when other points of view are appropriate as well.  But the majority of time, I am on their level.

4.  Make sure they feel like themselves.  This means different things for different people.  But if your children do not normally wear nice, smocked dress clothes then do not put them on just for photographs.  It really does effect the atmosphere of the shoot.  Let them be themselves.

5.  Don't be afraid to mess up.  The beauty of the digital world is that there is no harm in messing up a hundred times.  It is now called the delete button.  And sometimes apparent mess ups are some of my favorites.  Take risks.

6.  Look for the light.  This is the most important thing I can stress.  It is all about the light.  Your photos will never be what you want if you do not learn to study the light around you.  The best time of day is early morning and late afternoon/early evening.  If you must shoot in the day, then find good open shade.

7.  Bribe.  My husband will totally disagree with this tip but I am a huge proponent in bribing for photographs.  Have something fun for the very end of the shoot.  Something that you could use in the photographs is the best!  Like a popsicle, big colorful sucker, a fun headband- whatever!  I am always happy when I hear that parents have something for the kiddos at the end.  Sometimes that is the only way I can get them to cooperate.  Especially for those long shoots.

8.  Last but not least.  Book a family session once a year when children are really young and once every 2 years as they grow.  If not with me, then with another photographer that you love.  Your presence as a family is so important to capture.  You want to remember those sweet moments that you cannot photograph yourself.  It is such a small investment for a lifetime of memory.

Here are a few favorites from my recent session with my two...

As Good As It Gets | Nashville Family Photographer

This is as about as good as it gets when trying to photograph BG & Abram together.  So, all you Mom's (any maybe a few Dads?) out there- it's NOT easy photographing your own children.  That's what you pay me for.  Now on to book our family session for the fall.  Have you booked yours?  Do so NOW because the fall is filling up fast!!!

Letting Go | Nashville Children's Photographer

You're a bird with a pretty mouthYou're a bird with songs to shout And the same refrain continues, singing out:

"If you love her let her go." She sings beautiful and slow A tune that only caged birds know

The above song by one of my favorites, Jon Foreman, echoes in my head all the time.  Especially when it comes to my daughter, and even sometimes to myself.  Because, you see, I'm beginning to realize that my daughter is me.  I've wanted her to be different.  Gentle.  Quiet.  Obedient.  But instead she is quickly morphing into a smaller version of myself.   Complex.  Passionate.  Wild.  Defiant.  A Protester.  Compassionate.  A Lover and a Fighter.  And in her most free moments she breaks out into a beautiful dance while moving to her distinct melody playing in her head.  In those moments, I want to be her.  Let go and just dance to the music in my head.   Because this caged bird has her own melody and it will never be heard if I don't break open the door.    In learning to let her break out, I am learning to find my way out too.  So we learn to fly together.